31 October
Posted by Kayla
This upcoming week is pure craziness. In one week I am leaving for a cruise in Europe with my boyfriend. We are going on a Meditteranian cruise to Barcelona, Malta, Naples, Rome, Florence and then Cannes. Man. I’m stoked. But completely dreading this upcoming week up until then. I have my Justice 101 midterm, which my professor says “on this midterm, you can never write too much. I am starting you at 0 points and whatever significant points you add, I’ll give you one extra point” Can you say ’scary’. (oh…Happy Halloween, by the way!)
Then I have this huge packet due in Symbolic Logic, with these severely complicated proofs. Up until now, the proofs have been easy to do, but we started dealing with rules that are basically being pulled out of thin air (DeMorgans, Exportation, Conditional Exchange. GROSS.) Then I have to write a page essay in Spanish about a past trip. For me, that is difficult to write a whole page. I still have difficulty speaking three clear sentences. Also in Spanish I have to prepare to give a five minute presentation in Spanish the day after I get home from Europe. On top of that, my spanish professor said I have to take the quizzes that the class is taking while I’m gone, before I leave. That is 4 quizzes in one day. On top of this, in Great Philosophers, I have a presenation I need to give on The Republic, Book IV. No, no. It doesn’t end there. My best friend is getting married the day before I leave on my cruise, and it’s up in Logan. She also wants me to contact all the friends we have and invite them to her wedding since she hasn’t had enough time too. Plus I need to pack still. Plus I have a list of like 5 poeople who want Mary Kay facials. I know Mary Kay is 2nd priority to my schooling and I can push it back, I just love, love doing it, so I hate pushing that out of my schedule.
Anyway, all that rambling leads me to my conclusion. This blog can sometimes be a burden on me, but I feel obligated to write in it, and because it makes me feel accomplished and refreshened, getting some of my ideas out into the open energy. So on days when I’m swomped, I’m going to scribble down inspirational quotes. I have tons of quotes I just live by.
So for today’s quote. I love this quote, because I used to antipodean of this quote. I’ll explain after
“But if in your fear you would seek only love’s peace and love’s pleasure, then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love’s threshing floor, into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, butg not all of your tears.” –Kahlil Gibran
I adulate this quote because in the past, I always wanted to maintain the most power in my relationships. I would never show any of my weak sides, insecurites or emotions. I had my “poker face” to say the least. It worked, I maintained the power, had full control, but I never actually was able to enjoy, embrace and feel comfortable in my relationships. It is so refreshing to be in a relationship where you can be your true, authentic self, where you can let your raw emtions come out. It’s where you’re able to display your weakest moments–the ones where you know you appear pathetic, crazy, etc. — but you are free. You rendered your whole self to that person. Now that is beautiful.
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